:: intuition ::

2011-10-18T12:16:00.004+08:00

Whenever I see you, my heart is filled with emotions
You awoke my rusted and frozen heart
Please love me, Please hold me,
even its the pain I hide inside,
So that painful tears and sad loneliness,
wouldn’t come to me again
I am afraid to give my heart,
afraid of the pain that would follow.
It’s my heart that I trashed and kept for a while..
When did you enter my heart?
when did you fill it up?
My heart filled with you fragrance, your memories,
whenever I see you, my heart is filled with emotions,
You awoke my rusted and frozen heart.. ..

The person that was hidden behind all the tears,
The one and only person I have waited,
for such a long time,
maybe it’s you..
Whenever I’m with you,
I’m smiling even though I’m hurt..
The person that healed my deep wounds and the tears,
that were like my habit..
I will show you,
I will give you all the love that I kept,
so that words of loneliness and separation,
wouldn’t exist between us,
so that only LOVE would remain.. ..

l.o.v.e

2011-10-17T16:37:00.001+08:00

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakinimu
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Ku slalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku.. ..

dirimu satu..

2011-10-04T10:32:00.005+08:00

voted for my wedding song! this song is on top of my personal fav! (for now) ;)
this song really touch my heart.. wishing 'he' will sing this song for me on e' day! hehe
*dreaming high*

wahai insan di sana... ..

2011-09-30T10:46:00.001+08:00

Satu kata bertulis cinta
Telah merasuki ku
Tak urung cinta tersentuh
Hanya ku rasa
dan jika wujudnya menjelma
pada sebentuk hati
Bukankah itu amanah
dari yang kuasa?
Menjaganya..

Wahai insan yang di sana
Mungkin saja ini kau dengar
Melewati semesta ini
Aku sampaikan
Begitu ingin berbagi batin
Mendengarkan asa di jiwa..

Oh Tuhan,
pertemukan aku
sebelum hatinya beku..

kosong yang kurasakan..

2011-08-24T09:51:00.001+08:00

Kamu seperti hantu, terus menghantuiku
Ke mana pun tubuhku pergi, kau terus membayangi aku
Salahku biarkan kamu bermain dengan hatiku
Aku tak bisa memusnahkan kau dari pikiranku ini
Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi,
Sendiri memikirkan kamu
Kau genggam hatiku dan kau tuliskan namamu..
Tubuhku ada di sini, tetapi tidak jiwaku..
Kosong yang hanya kurasakan..
Kau telah tinggal di hatiku .. ..

Every night i pray.. ..

2011-08-10T20:41:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Yang Maha Melihat dan mendengar,
Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia tercipta buatku,
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku,
Tetapkan lah kemesraan antara kami,
Agar kebahagiaan ini kekal abadi..

Tetapi Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih,
Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia bukan milikku,
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku,
Luput dari ingatan ku,
Dan peliharalah aku dari kecewa..

Serta Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti,
Berilah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya ke dada langit,
Hilang bersama senja nan merah dan gelap pekat awan,
Agar aku bisa bahagia walaupun tanpa dirinya..

Dan ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Biar sekuat mana aku menyintainya,
Aku pohon agar Tuhanku
Melenyapkan perasaan ini
Sekiranya dia ditakdirkan bukan milikku..

Ya Rahman Ya Rahim,
sekiranya dia ditakdirkan untukku,
Kupohan agar takdir memperkuatkan kasihku padanya,
Selagi tidak melebihi kasihku padaMU..

Ya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui,
Sesungguhnya hanya Kau yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik buatku,
Aku pasrah dan redha dengan segala ketentuanMu Ya Allah..

Amin Ya Rabbal A' lamin..

Love me or let me go .. ..

2011-08-04T14:31:00.001+08:00

Why you keep me hanging,
On a thin line, taking your time?
I'd like to think that we're advancing
But I really don't know where this will go
Baby, give me a sign, throw me a line
Show me that it's time for us
Don't keep me in the dark
Open up your heart
Tell me what I need to know
You can't make up your mind
You keep playing for time
Baby, love me or let me go .. ..

recovery..

2011-05-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

After a trauma, your body is at its most vulnerable. Response time is critical. So you're suddenly surrounded by people—doctors, nurses, specialists, technicians—surgery is a team sport. Everyone pushing for the finish line. Putting you back together again. But surgery is a trauma in and of itself, and once it's over, the real healing begins. It's called recovery. Recovery is not a team sport. It's a solitary distance run. It's long. It's exhausting. And it's lonely as hell.

The length of your recovery is determined by the extent of your injuries. And it's not always successful. No matter how hard we work at it. Some wounds might never fully heal. You might have to adjust to a whole new way of living. Things may have changed too radically to ever go back to what they were. You might not even recognize yourself. It's like you haven't recovered anything at all. You're a whole new person with a whole new life.. ..

...

2011-05-25T20:07:00.002+08:00

"Biology says that we are who we are from birth. That are DNA is set in stone. Unchangeable. Our DNA doesn't account for all of us though, we're human. Life changes us. We develop new traits. Become less territorial. We start competing. We learn from our mistakes. We face our greatest fears. For better or worse, we find ways to become more than our biology. The risk of course is that we can change too much to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Finding our way back can be difficult. There's no compass, no map. We just have to close our eyes, take a step, and hope to God we get there... .."

~ Meredith Grey > Grey's Anatomy, Season 7, Can't Fight Biology

ingatlah diriku..

2011-05-24T10:15:00.000+08:00

Ingatlah diriku yang pernah
Ada disampingmu
Ada diwaktumu
Ada dihatimu

Kuingat dirimu yang pernah
Hadir disampingku
Temani waktuku
Temani hatiku.. ..

heartthrob.. my current obsession!

2011-04-28T15:37:00.004+08:00

CHAGIYA ^_^
People say we're watching our lives
Through a glass
Desperately waiting on a chance
I know you're out there
Holding on, holding out for me ..
There'll come a day
When you'll walk out of my dreams
Face to face Like I'm imagining
(^_^)

the cause of my heart pounding.... oh no. am goin' crazy! :")

my oppa
*love love love*

Faith, Hope, and Love

2011-02-23T12:39:00.001+08:00

of the three.. Faith, Hope, and Love: remember what we said is the greatest of these? LOYALTY is the greatest... I am and will always be..! :))

my prayer

2011-02-18T12:00:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah....
Seandainya telah kau catatkan dia milikku, tercipta buatku.. Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku.. Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami agar kemesraan itu abadi..dan Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku yang maha mengasihi.... seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini.... Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi..

Tetapi Ya Allah...
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan milikku, bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku... Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan...
Serta Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku yang maha mengerti... Berikanlah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit.. Hilang bersama senja nan merah agar aku bahagia walaupun tanpa bersama bengannya...

Dan Ya Allah yang tercinta...
Gantilah yang telah hilang... Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya... Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku... pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu.. Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik buatku, kerana Engkau maha mengetahui segala yang terbaik buat hamba mu ini.. ..

Ya Allah.. cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku, di dunia dan di akhirat...

Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba mu yang daif ini.. Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian, di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat.. maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup...

Amin,Ya Robbal A'lamin

2011-01-26T10:27:00.001+08:00

I'm a woman. We don't say what we want, but we reserve the right to be pissed off if we don't get it. That's what makes us so fascinating and not just a little bit scary.

who do you think you are???

2011-01-26T09:33:00.001+08:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you,
Cause all that's waiting is regret,
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most...
And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars,
Collecting your jar of hearts,
And tearing love apart....

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are??!!!!!

그여자

2011-01-16T14:21:00.002+08:00

There is a woman who loves you.
That woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow every day.
She smiles but is actually crying inside.

How much longer do I have to gaze at you alone
with this overwhelming love, this all consuming love,
If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer, just a little bit.
Please don’t step back
I, the one who loves you, is still next to you.
because I love you.

That woman is very shy
So she learn how to smile
Her heart is so full of tear,
She can't share her feelings with anyone.

That woman loves you
Beause you were so like her.
You are both fools, a pair of fools.
Could you hold me once, before you go?

I want to be loved, by you.
My heart cries for you, only for you
But you don't know
and yet that woman still stays by you

Do you know that
I am that woman?

You don't do you?

You may not know because you are just a fool.

How much longer, do I have to gaze at you alone
with this overwhelming love, this all consuming love,
If I continue this, would you love me?

Just come a little nearer, just a little bit.
Please don’t step back
I, the one who loves you, is still next to you,
even though I'm in pain whenever I'm with you,
because I love you.. ..

.. manusia biasa... ..

2011-01-05T20:26:00.003+08:00

aku hanya manusia biasa,
terkadang ku kuat, setegar karang
kadang ku rapuh, lemah tidak berdaya..
aku disini untuk kau tahu,
betapa seriknya jiwaku sewaktu bersamamu,
angin tolong hembuskan aku,
jauh dari bayangan itu.. ..

sideline

2010-11-28T12:10:00.002+08:00

I can't keep waiting, waiting
Show me a sign, Give me a reason to believe in your smile
Cause I'm not seeing anything on your face
It's like our love was erased from your eyes
Throw me a rope, don't leave me drowning in an ocean so cold
I really need you to help me understand
Why you don't reach for my hand when you know I'm hurting

I've been on the sideline waiting baby
Feeling like I'm here alone
I don't wanna be your last resort
Sitting on the bench waiting for your call
I thought that we were closer

I try and I try and you're never around
I say I won't cry, but the tears they come
Pouring and the truth is I don't wanna leave but I'm losing my mind
Waiting on the sideline

This is your chance
Our song is playing
And you should want us to dance
You used to laugh when I would step on your feet
Is that just a memory?

Remember when we danced til the sun came up
I'm not a game
You can't replace me if I happen to break
So don't make promises and not follow through
Cause I don't do that to you
Baby can you feel me, yeah?

Some things gotta change
Cause I've been losing faith
I love you but I can't wait here forever
How did you get so far
So far away from my heart?
Don't you realize I'm here too?

I can't keep waiting, waiting
Cause it don't seem like you do
Cause I am hurt
I don't need hurt from you
You got me waiting on the sideline.. ..

2010-11-06T19:58:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya hanya Kau yang mengetahui apa yang tersurat dan tersirat
Kau Maha mengasihi dan Maha menyayangi,
Kau juga maha melihat dan maha mendengar.

Ya Tuhan,
Kau bukakanlah pintu hatinya,
biarkan dia rasai kasih yang tulus ini hanya untuk dirinya..
Jangan pula Kau tarik kembali nikmat kasih sayang antara kami
Kau hadirkan jua kasih itu kepada dirinya buat diriku.. ..

* Semoga waktu akan mengilhami sisi hatimu yang beku,
Semoga akan datang keajaiban, hingga akhirnya kaupun mau.. ..

I know you can save me, no one else can save me now but you.. .

2010-11-04T16:20:00.004+08:00

Will you raise me up?
Will you help me down?
Will you help get me right out of this Godforsaken town?
Will you make it a little less cold?
Will you hold me sacred?
Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it a little less old?
Will you make me some magic, with your own two hands?
Can you build an Emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something that I can take home?
Will you cater to every fantasy that I've got?
Will you take me to places that I've never known?
After a while you'll forget everything,
It was a brief interlude, And a midsummer night's fling,
And you'll see that it's time to move on.. ..
I know the territory - I've been around,
It'll all turn to dust and we'll all fall down,
And sooner or later you'll be screwing around.

I would do anything for love, but I wont do that..

:: i pray ::

2010-11-02T14:11:00.000+08:00

Setiap detik ku berdoa,
diberikan kekuatan dan ketenangan dalam hati,
untuk menempuh setiap dugaan yang mencabar ini.
Agar dapat kuhadapi dengan tenang.
Aku hanya berserah,
segalanya pada-Mu.
Andai ini takdirku
Andai ini yang tertulis buatku,
Ku terima..
Moga setiap yang Kau takdirkan
adalah yang terbaik buatku..

Ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca.
Jikalau tidak bersabar hancur berderailah akhirnya.
Tabahkanlah hatiku melalui semua itu.
Kuatkanlah, cekalkanlah diriku..

perhaps

2010-11-01T15:06:00.000+08:00

All the roads that lead to you were winding
and all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall.. ..

oh my superhuman.. ..

2010-10-29T12:28:00.001+08:00

I’m standing here, there’s nothing I can do.
My heart is with you.
You know I'll wait for you.
If it takes a lifetime to do, I will wait for you..
Cause I can't live without my heart,
and you're the only thing worth holding onto.. ..

decode.. ..

2010-10-25T20:46:00.001+08:00

rizawandamhauoytraehi
(:

2010-10-21T00:21:00.001+08:00

Aku tersesat menuju hatimu
Beri aku jalan yang indah
Izinkan aku lepas penatku
untuk sejenak lelap di bahumu

* perfect nightmare *

2010-10-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes we fight
sometimes i cry
why don't i just tell him goodbye
sometimes i should but sometimes i don't
build up the strength to say that its wrong

sometimes i hate
sometimes i love
sometimes i hurt
sometimes i don't
sometimes i wait for him to change
but its okay i just got to pay (yeah)

and i don't ever wanna leave em' alone
they say I'm brain washed
but I'm in love with this man (yeahhh)

keep tellin' myself that its not worth it
i already know i don't deserve it
but if its from you i don't mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i don't mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)

sometimes i keep it cool
sometimes i let 'em know
sometimes i even pack my bags to walk out the door
sometimes i feel safe
sometimes i really don't
sometimes i promise that im ready to let 'em go
but i don't ever wanna leave 'em alone
they say I'm brain washed
but I'm in love with this man

hopin' he's changing
but I'm scared he's not
cant see a way to leave him
he open my eyes, and i..

keep tellin' myself that its not worth it
i already know i don't deserve it
but if its from you i don't mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare

* [ perfect nighmare ] *

2010-09-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

“Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.”

2010-09-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

Awalnya tak mengerti apa yg sedang kurasakan
Segalanya berubah dan rasa rindu itu pun ada
Sejak kau hadir di setiap malam di tidurku
Aku tahu sesuatu sedang terjadi padamu

Sudah sekian lama ku alami pedih putus cinta
Dan mulai terbiasa hidup sendiri tanpa asmara
Dan hadirmu membawa cinta sembuhkan lukaku
Kau berbeda dari yang ku kira

Aku jatuh cinta kepada dirinya
Sunguh sungguh cinta oh apa adanya
Tak pernah ku ragu namun tetap selalu menunggu
Sungguh aku jatuh cinta kepadanya

Coba-coba dengarkan apa yang ingin aku katakan
Yang selama ini sungguh telah lama terpendam
Aku tak percaya membuatku tak berdaya
Tuk ungkapkan apa yang kurasa

Kadang aku cemburu, kadang aku gelisah
Seringnya ku tak tentu lalui hariku
Tak dapat ku mungkiri hatiku yang terdalam
Betapa aku jatuh cinta kepadanya

.. sepi ..

2010-09-18T19:20:00.001+08:00

Bisik ku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku
Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku

Bulan..Jangan biar siang
Biar malam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku.. .. ..

tell her.. ..

2010-09-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

To really love a woman
To understand her, you gotta know it deep inside
Hear every thought, see every dream
and give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman..

When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you
til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her, really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
and when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

You got to give her some faith, hold her tight
A little tenderness, gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, taking good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

2010-08-31T22:19:00.004+08:00

I'm waiting for a love without a words,
I'm hurting for a love without words,
my soul has left me..

without belief i'm waiting for love,
without belief i'm hurting for love,
i became a fool after my soul left,
and cried staring at the sky..

moon

2010-08-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

Everyone wants to be the sun who’ll light up your life so I guess I’ll just be your moon. I may not be as big and bright but I promise to be there for you when your sun is shining in someone else’s sky.

without a word.. ..

2010-08-29T14:24:00.004+08:00

I shouldn’t have done it,
I should have ignored it,
as though i couldn't see you,
as though you couldn't be seen,
i think i should have just not seen you at all,

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
as though i couldn't hear it, as though it couldn't be heard,
I shouldn’t have listened to your love at all..

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
you filled me with your every breath..
Then you ran away

Without a word, love left me
Without a word, love tossed me aside
Don't know what to say
My lips must have been surprised
because you came without a word.. ..

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore, and that you’re not here anymore
otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised

Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken

Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I’ve become transparent, I’ve become a fool
and I cry just by looking at the sky

Without a word, separation finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
It tool my heart by surprised
To send you away unexpectedly
It came without a word

Without a word, love appears
Without a word, love vanishes
Like a fever I’ve had, maybe all I have to do is hurt for a while
Because in the end, the only thing that remains are scars

wahai adam..

2010-08-25T14:38:00.001+08:00

cintailah aku
kerana cintamu pada Tuhan yg satu,
betulkanlah aku kerana agama itu lurus,
pimpinlah aku,
kelak aku amanahmu yg bakal dipersoal Tuhan,
tegurlah kesilapanku,
kerana diriku ekspresi dirimu,
berlemah-lembutlah terhadapku,
kerana aku tamsilam rusukmu yg bengkok,
bersolat denganku,
kerana akulah makmunahmu paling akrab,
doakan keberkatanku,
kerana aku ingin mencintaimu hingga ke FIRDAUS.. ..

Je t'aimerai toujours.. ..

2010-08-25T12:05:00.002+08:00

Alors dis-moi comment t'aimer,
Ce qu'il faut faire pour te garder,
Larmes si je vivais sans toi,
Rires le jour ou je te vois.. ..
Je t'aimerai toujours
Tellement j'ai d'amour pour toi

2010-08-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

No wonder love is so difficult, I’m still clumsy
Honestly, now I am used to the sadness that love seems far away
Sometimes we have to go separate ways and have to collide each other

but…

Maybe it’s love
Whenever I see you, my heart is filled with emotions
You awoke my rusted and frozen heart
Please love me, Please hold me,
even its the pain I hide inside,
So that painful tears and sad loneliness,
wouldn’t come to me again
I am afraid to give my heart,
afraid of the pain that would follow.
It’s my heart that I trashed and kept for a while

but…

When did you enter my heart?
when did you fill it up?
My heart filled with you fragrance, your memories,
Maybe it’s love..
whenever I see you, my heart is filled with emotions,
You awoke my rusted and frozen heart

The person that was hidden behind all the tears,
The one and only person I have waited,
for such a long time,
maybe it’s you..
Whenever I’m with you,
I’m smiling even though I’m hurt..
The person that healed my deep wounds and the tears,
that were like my habit..
I will show you,
I will give you all the love that I kept,
so that words of loneliness and separation,
wouldn’t exist between us,
so that only love would remain.. ..

you don't know.. ..

2010-08-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

Smile a little more, with a happy smile
so that you can comfort my heart
that keeps looking for you
smile a little more, so that the world would be jealous
so that my heart that keeps calling for you
would not be able to become greedy
My heart curses at me, because I can’t even say I love you
My tears burst, because my longing for you flows and flows
Only that sad phrase has been struck to my throat like a thorn
And remain in my ears the whole day..
why does it have to be you?
why did I have to love you?
even if I shake my head, deny it
I can’t let you go

I love you, I love you forever
Even if you don’t look at me

Even if I say it a thousand times, you don’t know
Even if I wait at the same spot, you don’t know
My foolish love that simply looks at you like an idiot
You don’t know..
No matter what.. ..

spell i'm under.. ..

2010-08-19T10:25:00.002+08:00

It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under,
guess i don't have to answer,
'cause you already know.. ..

oh my! teringat zaman sekolah when i watch this music video clip by GIL.. zaman kegilaan GIL, seangkatan dgn BSB, Nsync, Moffats, Hanson.. etc.
and GIL, pretty boy he is.. oh my!! hehe ;p

: the original version :

fantasy.. ..

2010-08-16T17:05:00.002+08:00

The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.

will.. ..?

2010-08-14T18:15:00.003+08:00

You siad;
"I'd lie for you and that's the truth..."

And I ask you;
"Will you do anything I ask you to?
Even sell your soul for me?
Do it all.. Just for me?
What would you do to make me believe in you.. ..?"

stare.. ..

2010-08-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

I sit here quietly staring at you
Hoping for a miracle that just will not come true.
Do you notice me? Cuz I sure notice you
Just give up? Or simply just purse.

I stare at the stars, thinking of us both
I look at the moon, I am sure you exist.
And I would be willing to declare under oath
For on our love I will always insist.

What if.. .. ..?

2010-08-12T00:21:00.001+08:00

Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing.
How do you know when how much is too much?
Too much too soon? Too much information?
Too much fun? Too much love? Too much to ask?
And when is it all just too much to bear?

What if there was no light,
Nothing wrong, nothing right?
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme?
What if I got it wrong?
...And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong..

That's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
How can you know it if you don't even try?
Every step that you take,
Could be your biggest mistake..
It could bend or it could break,
But that's the risk that you take..
What if you should decide?
That you don't want me there by your side,
That you don't want me there in your life?
What if.. ..?

2010-08-12T00:12:00.000+08:00

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

2010-08-10T23:30:00.004+08:00

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita.. ..

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa
Walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada
Ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba
Sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya
Kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena
Dikejut igau semula

Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan…
Aku masih terkilan.. ..

Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

"The mermaid who loved the shark"

2010-08-08T10:10:00.001+08:00

I couldn't say with words but I think it was from the beginning
Come to me, though I know that you will hurt me

Don't be too surprised, or too excited, or too hurt
But a love that sometimes complains and is jealous

Even if it's normal, do you know that I want to have that kind of love?
I wanted to stop, because I despised you who pretended to not know
But I can't go on without you and because even you know this
I'm still sadly by your side

You try to say something different
But if I tell you that I love you first
I wonder what face expression you will have

Even if it's normal, do you know that I want to have that kind of love?
I wanted to stop because I despised you who pretended to not know
But I can't go on without you and because even you know this
I don't want to give you a burden but
I'm still sadly by your side

Can you only figure out my love with words?
I wanted to stop, because I despised you who pretended to not know
But I can't go on without you and because even you know this
I don't want to give you a burden but
I'm still sadly by your side

Sang-eo-reul sa-rang-han in-eo

2010-08-08T10:06:00.002+08:00

Νallo halsu eobsseossjiman
cheoeum bodeon, geuddae bootteonga bwa
naegerowa nareul dachige, hal geotdo nan ara

Νeomoo manhi nolrajido
seolrejido apeujido~malgo
kaggeumssikeun jiroohadamyeo
ttoojeonhaneun sarang

Pyeong beomhaedo geureon sarang,
hago sipeun nae mam ani
moreuncheok haneun nega miwoseo,
geuman doogodo sipjiman

Neo eobsineun andwineungeol,
neojochado algi ttaemoone
neoege boodamjoo~gin sirheo,
(sipjiman) jigeumdo ne gyeotte isseo,
seulpeuge na

Neon dareun ma~reul, haryeoneunde
saranghanda meonjeo mareul hamyeon
neoneun eoddeon pyojeong jieul~ji
neomoo goonggeumhae

Mallo halsu issneun sarang
geuraeyaman nae mam ani
moreuncheok haneun nega miwoseo
geuman doogodo sipjiman

'Percayalah.. .. Itu Aku'

2010-08-06T10:30:00.001+08:00

Ribuan hari aku menunggumu
Jutaan lagu tercipta untukmu
Apakah kau akan terus begini
Masih adakah celah di hatimu
Yang masih bisa tuk ku singgahi
Cobalah aku kapan engkau mahu

Tahukah lagu yang kau suka
Tahukah bintang yang kau sapa
Tahukah rumah yang kau tuju...

Itu aku...
Coba keluar di malam badai
Nyanyikan lagu yang kau suka
Maka kesejukan yang kau rasa
Coba keluar di terik siang
Ingatlah bintang kau sapa
Maka kesejukan yang kau rasa
Percayalah...
Itu aku...

happy?

2010-08-04T15:46:00.001+08:00

Communication.. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words & really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say.. or how to ask for what we really need.. ..
It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier, happier life. As children, we're told to smile, be cheerful and put on a happy face. As adults we're told to look on the bright side, make lemonade and see glasses half full. Sometimes reality can get in our way of the ability to act the happy part though. Your health can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in thee moments when you just want to get real, drop the act and be your true, scared, unhappy self.
Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple...to be happy. Maybe it's this expectation of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state of bliss, the more confused we get to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling, trying to be the happy people we once were until eventually it hits us...it's been there all along. Not in dreams or hopes, but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.. ..

waiting.. ..

2010-07-22T15:17:00.001+08:00

We spend half our life sleeping, but we spend our whole life waiting.
Waiting in lines, waiting for times, waiting to be old enough, waiting for a call.
We’re always waiting. We just don't always realize it.
Waiting for someone to say something, waiting for them to notice you.
Constantly waiting for that one person, and they have no idea you’re waiting for them..

I think I think too much.
I worry over things that have yet to come,
wasting time lingering over the future so much that I miss out on the joys of the present.
I need to stop,
I need to stop being this over-analytic, paranoid little girl;
I need to start to be myself again.
Because I'm sick of missing out on the joys of this life worrying over such nonsense - things that may not even ever happen.. ..

2010-07-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

I hope someday you'll find all my quotes and read them all.
I hope you'll know that they're all about you,
and when you read them,
I hope that at least a single tear will roll down your handsome face.. ..

..te necesito.. ..mi corazon..

2010-07-14T10:02:00.001+08:00

No perderé la esperanza de estar contigo
Todo lo prohibido, es todo lo que quiero de ustedes
Quiero despertar todos los besos tu ternura
Mi bebé, mi vida, te necesito.

No importa que diga el destino quedate conmigo
cuidado, mucho cuidado,

Que mi corazon està colgando en tus manos.. ..

shaking.. ..in this all alone

2010-07-12T21:04:00.001+08:00

I am helpless, at your will
See me shaking standing still
I've been swept away like drops
Of rain into the ocean
Kiss me once before you go
In a way that makes me know
That I'm not in this world alone.. ..

2010-07-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

I miss you,
I heart you,
I care bout you,
I love you,
but sometimes it is not enough.. ..

lost

2010-07-09T12:27:00.001+08:00

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I'm across

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost!
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost!
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Oh and I'm just waiting til the firing's stopped
Oh and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off

masih belum kutemu.. ..

2010-07-05T12:29:00.001+08:00

Hadirlah kasih…
Hadir dalam mimpiku
Hadirlah cinta…
Hadir dalam hidupku

Dalam perjalananku
Masih jauh harusku tuju
Aku mencari-cari cinta
Cinta yang tulus dan sejati

Kerna aku percayakan
Cinta suci yang datang dari hati

Hadirlah kasih…
Hadir dalam mimpiku
Hadirlah cinta…
Hadir dalam hatiku
Hadirlah sayang…
Hadir dalam hidupku
Hadirlah kasih…
Agar tercapai segala-galanya

Harus aku mencari
Cinta yang tulus suci
Punya segala-galanya
Apa yang aku impikan

Kerna aku percayakan
Cinta suci yang datang dari hati

Hadirlah kasih…
Hadir dalam mimpiku
Hadirlah cinta…
Hadir dalam hatiku
Hadirlah sayang…
Hadir dalam hidupku
Hadirlah kasih…
Agar tercapai segala-galanya

Kalau ditakdirkan
Bertemuku denganmu
Akan kubina istana bahgia
Agar kita bersama
Kekal selamanya

Hadirlah kasih…
Hadir dalam mimpiku
Hadirlah cinta…
Hadir dalam hatiku
Hadirlah sayang…
Hadir dalam hidupku
Hadirlah kasih…
Agar tercapai segala-galanya..

'Trauma'

2010-07-02T21:24:00.004+08:00

Trauma.. I am..
I'm still bleading.
I'm a little wounded but I'm not slain;
I will lay me down to bleed for awhile,
Then I'll rise again.. .. ..
No worries, I'm not a fool.
I will not make him my priority anymore.
I'm gonna stop here,
coz I'm afraid I will fall deeper,
And I dont want to hurt that much.
I lost hope and faith.
So i said.. Enough..
Yes I'm quitting, I had enough..
I am done with him
and
I'm trying to move on.. ..

lately.. ..

2010-07-02T18:12:00.001+08:00

Lately I've had the strangest feeling
With no even reason here to find
But yet the thought of losing you's been hanging,
Around my mind..
Far more frequently you're wearing perfume,
And with you saying 'No special place to go'
But when I ask, will you be coming back soon?
Saying you don't know, never know..

Lately I've been staring in the mirror,
Very slowly picking me apart
Saying I'm trying to tell myself I have a reason with your heart
Babe, just the other night while you were sleeping,
I heard you vaguely whisper someone's name
But, when I asked you what the thoughts you keeping,
You just said 'Nothing changed'

I'm a man of many wishes..
Hope my premonition misses..
But what I really feel,
My eyes won't let me hide
'cause it always starts to cry
'cause this time could mean goodbye.. ..

Melawan kesepian.. ..

2010-06-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan
Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti
Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku

Even when the heart's stopped beating, it is still bleeding

2010-06-28T00:21:00.001+08:00

You touched my life
With your softness in the night
My wish was your command
Until you ran out of love

I tell myself I'm free
Got the chance of livin' just for me
No need to hurry home
Now that you're gone

Knife, cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal?
I'm so deeply wounded
Knife, cuts like a knife
You cut away the heart of my life

When I pretend, wear a smile
To fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
It's just a show

I'm on a stage, day and night
I go through my charades
But how can I disguise
What's in my eyes

I've tried and tried
Blocking out the pain I feel inside
The pain of wanting you
Wanting you.. ..

"I'm a little wounded but I'm not slain; I will lay me down to bleed for awhile, Then I'll rise again.. .. .."

because of you

2010-06-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
Will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh, Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I'm crying in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you, I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I am afraid .. ..

I never thought I could love again
I never thought I'd let somebody else in
I never thought I could trust and then..

because of you.. .. ..

2010-06-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

As I lay here lying on my bed, sweet voices come into my head.
Oh what it is, I wanna know, please won't you tell me it's got to go.
There's a feeling that's inside me, telling me to get away.
But I'm so tired of living, I might as well end today.. ..

move on

2010-06-27T06:26:00.000+08:00

Ku terus melangkah untuk melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan fikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin aku tetap bertahan

Terasa mimpi terus mengganggu
Namun kucuba untuk terus menjauh
Walaupun hatiku terbelenggu
kucuba untuk teruskan hidup

Engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat untuk hentikan langkahku
Usai sudah semua berlalu
Biarlah hujan menghapus jejakmu

lepaskanlah segalanya.. ..

sampai bila?

2010-06-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

Apa yang terjadi dengan hatiku
Kumasih disini menunggu pagi
Seakan letih tak menggangguku
Kumasih terjaga menunggu pagi

(Entah kapan malam berhenti, teman, aku masih menunggu pagi...)

patience

2010-06-24T16:57:00.004+08:00

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions”

Patience attains ALL that it strives for.
and the two most powerful warriors are patience and time.

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.

reminiscing.. . ..

2010-06-20T12:21:00.004+08:00

i miss the first time we meet,
i miss your smile,
i miss your voice,
i miss to hear your story,
i miss waiting for your call every night before i sleep,
i miss to hear you sing & play guitar for me (esp.'Heaven') when i couldn't sleep at night,
i miss to watch you play guitar, singing, jamming with your friends,
i miss giving you a wake up call,
i miss watching movie with you on wednesday night,
i miss hanging out with you and your friends,
i miss watching soccer match at mamak with you,
i miss lepaking with you at t-pah,
i miss barbican & sharing lamb mandy al-rawsha with you,
i miss sitting beside you, capture you, while waiting for you to finished your work (and watching you play mafia wars)
i miss driving all the way to your office, to meet you after office,
i miss to hear you 'membebel' while driving,
i miss to hear you sing (with all your heart) in the car,
i miss you tickle me when i pretend to sleep while you're driving,
i miss driving all the way to s.a to watch you play futsal on friday night,
i miss karaoke-ing with you before futsal (although I'm the worst singer)
i miss having dinner eating tomyam + sotong celup tepung + daging merah + telur beefsteak with you,
i miss to see you shake your head when i did not finish my food,
i miss baby Ferrari,
i miss my superman/superhuman,
i miss YOU the most.. ..

Suddenly i miss everything about us.. .. .. .. ..sigh.
*Silly Me*

Almost .. .. ..

2010-06-15T09:46:00.003+08:00

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

2010-06-13T19:54:00.005+08:00

Cinta datang tanpa diduga, dan ia pergi tanpa rela..
Andai ini yang tertulis buatku,
Aku redha dengan ketentuan-mu Ya Allah,
kerana sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik buatku.. .. ..
All i can do is pray,
hoping that one day,
my prayer will be answered.. ..

2010-06-11T11:56:00.002+08:00

there comes a point in your life when you realize.. .. ..

who matters,
who never did..
who won’t more..
and who always will.
so, don’t worry about people from your past
even though they means a lot for you.
because there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.. ..

Let bygones be bygones, the past remains the past until present.

One thing for sure,
I cherish every moment spent with you.
and you will never be forgotten..
XOXO

addiction

2010-06-10T12:12:00.002+08:00

I'm so sick of trying praying that you'll change
of walking the line between pleasure and pain
I'm so sick of crying on the bathroom floor
Don't want to want you anymore
Got nothing left
I gave all of me
Hurt so bad I can barely breathe
gotta save me, from my addiction.. .. ..

my prayer

2010-06-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

how could an angle break my heart

2010-06-03T09:22:00.001+08:00

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wished I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

kata yang takkan pernah terucap

2010-06-02T17:59:00.007+08:00

***** *******
I can't fight this feeling any longer.. ..
I can't take it anymore..
Saya sayang awak.. Sayang sangat!! Can't you see???!!
Saya takut kehilangan awak.. saya betul-betul takut..
Saya taknak kehilangan awak.. Jangan tinggalkan saya..!
Walaupun awak selalu menyakiti saya, saya masih bertahan..
sebab saya benar-benar sayangkan awak..
It's not the fear of leaving made me stay..
You were my strongest weakness.. I can barely breathe..
Don't leave me.. I'm begging, begging you.. please.. don't let me go..

bodoh kan saya? *sigh*

supergirl

2010-06-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

It's not suppose to feel
It's not suppose to be like this
I'm not what I used to be

I feel that I can't breathe
I feel that I can't be my self
Strong when I'm alone

Manytimes I try to step on the ground
but shape of you, taste of you, smell of you
Spinning in my head..
Goin crazy just because of you!!

Take me out of here!!!! take me out of here!!!!
I'm not my self, not I used to be
Yes I am Strong, I wanna be a supergirl
Well.. I just miss being me..

if you love someone..

2010-05-31T12:21:00.000+08:00

People say, if love someone, set them free.

but the truth is.. ..

If you LOVE someone, tell her.
Don't let her be the last to know.
Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous.
What is truly ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her.

Yes, I know that one of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter. but if you don't want to lose her, tell her how you feel. If you never tell her how you feel, then you can never find out if she feels the same way.

:))

2010-05-31T10:29:00.003+08:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you....
The one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her."

cry me out

2010-05-30T14:13:00.000+08:00

I got your emails
You just don’t get females
Now, do you?
What’s in my heart
Is not in your head
Anyway..

Mate, you’re too late
And you weren’t worth the wait
Now, were you?
It’s out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance
When you played me

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

When I found out
How you messed me about
I was broken (heartbroken)
Back then I believed you
Now, I don’t need you
No more

The pic on your phone
Proves you weren’t alone
She was with you, yeah
Now, I couldn’t care
About who, what or where
We’re through

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

Gonna have to cry me out
Gonna have to cry me out
Boy, there ain’t no doubt
Gonna have to cry me out

Won’t hurt a little bit
Boy, better get used to it
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

You'll Have to cry me out
You'll Have to cry me out

will you be.. .. .. 'Unmistakable' .. ..

2010-05-30T14:09:00.002+08:00

Anytime, anywhere, anyplace
You could be anyone today
Maybe I would recognize you On a crowded street
Maybe you'll take me by surprise
Will you be the one I had in mind

There'll come a day
When you'll walk out of my dreams
Face to face
Like I'm imagining
Baby how can I be sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
Will you be unmistakable
Unmistakable..

People say we're watching our lives
Through a glass
Desperately waiting on a chance
I know you're out there
Holding on, holding out for me
How are we to know the time is right
What if you're here and I'm just blind

How can I know a song I never heard
How will I know your voice
When you haven't said a word
How do I know how this will end
Before we begin
Before we begin

There'll come a day
When you walk out of my dreams
Face to face (face to face)
Like I'm imagining (Like I'm imagining)
Baby, how can I be sure (how can I be sure)
That you're the one I'm waiting for (You're the one I'm waiting for)
Will you be (will you be)
Will you be (will you be)
Unmistakable
Unmistakable

let go

2010-05-20T15:00:00.002+08:00

A man who cheated on his girl is one person we can never trust.
I don't want somebody, who's loving everybody..
You give me no reason to stay..
"cubalah untuk setia"

aggrieved.. ..

2010-04-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes, you need to throw in the towel… but that’s how you’ll win the fight."

BUT now i don't know what to do..

Part of me tell me to stop & let it go, but another said: When the world says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

taking chances.. what do you say?

2010-03-25T14:14:00.001+08:00

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world.. ..

stray

2010-03-20T09:45:00.002+08:00

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

e.m.p.t.y

2010-03-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling empty inside..
I'm in need of love and tender loving care..
*sigh*

trust

2010-03-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

I've learned that it takes years
to build up trust, and it only takes
suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

Trust is like a mirror..
once its BROKEN you can never look at it the same again...

and maybe its time to throw in the towel completely.. .. ..

te amo

2010-03-13T19:20:00.000+08:00

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.. how can i know?

my oh my [ISIL]

2010-03-10T20:55:00.002+08:00

Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
'Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.

Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.

I don't really need to look
Very much further,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
Your love I'll remember forever

Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there?
Don't walk away from me.
No, don't walk away from me.
Don't you dare walk away from me.
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you

You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.

I never knew
Love like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?

I don't really need to look
Very much further,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
our love I'll remember forever

ilu

2010-03-10T12:23:00.003+08:00

You make me feel brand new.
You always know how to make me smile,
make me flying without wings.
I get lost inside your stare,
I get butterflies in the stomach.
Nobody gives my heart palpitations,
No one else can make my heart flutter like you,
it’s no exaggeration, it’s true..

Convinced me, we were made for one another,
You are the one and there ain’t no other.
Please let me know that it's real,
coz you're just too good to be true.

If this is a dream,
then just let me sleep
And don't wake me up if it changes.
It's a beautiful nightmare..
If this is make believe,
then I don't want to leave.
I could stay here for eternity..

theme song

2010-03-03T12:48:00.003+08:00

My theme song at this moment :))

Hey no … noo oooooh
Ain’t nobody gonna treat you better
Ain’t nobody gonna touch you better
Ain’t nobody gonna love you better boy than I am
Than I am

When your out at night and your in the streets
And you have time to yourself
Think of all the love that you get from me
That you can’t find nowhere else
When your far away and I’m not around
And temptation fills your heart
Think of all the ways that I’m faithful babe
To replace me would be hard
Cause ain’t nobody

Ain’t nobody gonna treat you better
Ain’t nobody gonna touch you better
Ain’t nobody gonna love you better boy than I am
Than I am
(nobody, nobody) than I am (3x)
Ohh Ain’t nobody gonna treat you better than I am

You can try to act single if you wanna
You can go ahead and mingle if you wanna
You can even behave like you don’t care
But you know (but you know) like I know (like I know)
That you ain’t that foolish
Who you foolin’? You won’t ruin
What’s been here all along, you ain’t movin’
From what you’ve got at home

Ain’t nobody gonna treat you better
Ain’t nobody gonna touch you better
Ain’t nobody gonna love you better boy than I am
Than I am
(nobody, nobody) than I am (3x)
Ohhnobody gonna treat you as good as I am

I just want you to know
Baby I love you so
There is no need to go lookin’ for nothin more
Cause I’ve got everything you’ll ever need right here
But if you feel that you need to leave
Just know!!

Ain’t nobody gonna treat you better
Ain’t nobody gonna touch you better
Ain’t nobody gonna love you better boy than I am
Than I am
(repeat)
(nobody, nobody) than I am (3x)
Ohh nobody gonna treat you as good as I am

perfection

2010-03-01T16:42:00.004+08:00

"I'm not a perfect person and nobody is perfect..
therefore i didn't expect to find a perfect someone"

AND..
i won't waste another minute waiting for a perfect someone,
when i know that, that perfect someone doesn’t exist

~ diana (:

description of love

2010-02-11T10:26:00.001+08:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

*description of love from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin*

Jangan Kau Lepas

2010-02-05T13:41:00.001+08:00

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak disini

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah sempurna
Ku takkan pernah merasakanmu
Bila kau tak disini

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepas
Kau ku dan jangan kau lepaskankan ku
Darimu…

isi hati

2010-02-03T17:14:00.001+08:00

Andai semua bisa terucap
dari mulutku yang kelu di hadapan dirimu
mungkin semua takkan begini
menyudutkanku terdiam kaku di hadapanmu

Ketika rasa yang telah tercipta
melukiskan bayang dirimu
semakin membuatku ingin kan kamu
menjadi kekasihku..

Izinkan aku menjadi kekasih hatimu yang baru
izinkan aku menyatakan bahwa ku sayang padamu

U Make Me Wanna

2010-01-27T16:39:00.001+08:00

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor girl and you're the king.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Boy that's why:
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.

lagu kita - Aizat

2010-01-27T16:37:00.001+08:00

Deras hati ku berdetar
Di langit aku terlihat kamu
Terang malam teman kita
Dengan angin meniup sayu
Ku petir gitar akustik ini
Dengan harapan dia mendengar
Melodi indah yang ku cipta
Hanya untuk luahkan rinduku padanya
Dan aku terus menyanyikan lagu ini untukmu
Walau berjuta mendengar
Lagu ini hanyalah untuk mu
Arah hidup kita
Tergapai bintang di angkasa
Berkelip melukis cinta
Terciptalah lagu kita

still learning.. ..

2010-01-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

I’m saying sorry in advance cos this won’t always go to plan
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted
It's in our nature to forget what matters
How when the going is getting tough
And we’re all about giving up
Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them
Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them
It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right

Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door
Remind you that you’re beautiful
I know my detail requires more attention
If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention
Cause we’re gonna make our mistakes
Find out how much your heart can take
But I know that you got my back
And baby I got yours

Sometimes I’m gonna miss
I’m still learning how to give
I’m not giving up
I’m still learning how to love
Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

angel

2010-01-25T10:31:00.001+08:00

No Mountains too high, for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No rivers too wide, for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray
And then you will see, the morning will come
And everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel

I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day
And then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears, just cast them on me
How can I make you see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep up safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

melt

2010-01-24T10:54:00.002+08:00

Never knew around the corner I’d meet someone
That I would be totally comfortable sharing my love
My oh my!
I’m letting my guard down,
My heart is yours now
Baby cause now, You make me melt
Like an iceberg on the sea,
Baby you do things to me
That I never felt
You make me melt
Never ever been this weak,
this is all brand new to me
I think I should tell ya
That you make me melt, yeah
You make me melt oh baby
You should never say never, Cause it’s happening to me
Used to say, “I’ll never let a man take the lead”
But now I’m independent, Baby you’re all I need
Wouldn't last a day or a night without you next to me

I’ve always been the cool independent type
But now I’m different when I look in your eyes
I try to play it as cool as ice
But you make me melt every single time
You make me melt
Like an iceberg in the sea,
Baby you do things to me
That I never felt
You make me melt
Never ever been this weak,
this is all brand new to me
I think I should tell ya
That you make me melt, yeah
you make me melt, baby..

'Drama Queen'

2010-01-11T11:58:00.001+08:00

Kali pertama aku mengenalimu
Mahu bersama, Mahu bersama
Raut wajahmu bersih
Meyakinkan hati ini
Aku terpaut

Semua dusta palsu
Aku tertipu
Keperibadianmu
Berubah menurut nafsu
Panggilanmu gelaranmu
Baru ku tahu

Lakon layarmu hebat
Terpukau ku melihat
Isi hati upahan
Sampai bila
Kau mahu tersesat
Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh muslihat
Mahkotamu 'Drama Queen'

Kau masih berpura-pura
Kata-katamu hanya propaganda
Mengejar hijau ungu
Mata kelabu
Ini bukan kau yang pernah ku kenal dulu
Panggilanmu gelaranmu
Baruku tahu

Panggilanmu gelaranmu
Baru ku tahu
Kau bertapa
Bagai maharaja di atas lembah
Lakon layarmu yang terhebat
Memukau mata melihat
Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh dengan tipu muslihat
Sampai bila 'Drama Queen'?
Sampai bila 'Drama Queen'?
Hidup penuh dengan tipu muslihat???

Anugerah Juara Lagu ke-24

2010-01-11T09:56:00.003+08:00

AJL24 : Amazingly Awesome!! Best AJL so far! Salute to all participants & CONGRATS Aizat!

The winner of AJL 24 : Aizat - Pergi
Watching his performance last nite gives me goosebumps!

Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...
Sepi tanpa kata
Terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
Apa pun kata mereka
Biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...
Kau pergi... pergi...
Pergi...

terpendam

2010-01-08T09:56:00.002+08:00

Sudah lama mencari
Tapi tak ku temui
Rasa yang selalu
Ada di hati
Dulu cinta tiada lagi
Dan aku masih mencari-cari
Kerna hati ku sanggup menunggu
Cinta dari mu

Memang benar aku sudah jatuh cinta
Memang benar aku hampir jadi resah
Bila cinta dari mu hadir bagai lena dari mimpi
Bagai perasa
Memang benar aku sudah jatuh cinta
Memang benar kata hati ku pada mu
Tapi aku tak kuasa
Mengatakan pada mu
Rasa cintaku..
Ku akur selamanya

quote

2010-01-04T15:09:00.003+08:00

I don't think you ran away because you couldn't handle death. I think it's because you couldn't handle feelings. You're not like that anymore. You're strong. You carry people. You carry me. You're becoming a man in a way that your father never was. Come. Let's say goodbye.
- Blair Waldorf, Season 3, Episode 12: "The Debarted"